Is it bad to live for the future rather than the present?

I'm a coach for the Sheboygan South JV Dance Team. This past weekend, we hosted a Kids Clinic, where little girls come and learn dance moves and perform at halftime of a football game. As I watched the children, I couldn't help thinking of how my children are going to act, look like, and be like. Although I am only 18, I find myself wondering about the future all the time. I am told that I should stop worrying about the future and worry about the here and now. Well for me, that's so hard because the "here and now" is so boring and pointless.

Similar to many girls my age, I want to know who I am going to marry. I want to know exactly what he will look like, how he will propose, and what dress I'll walk down the aisle in. I have spent many years of my life planning out my "dream wedding" and call me crazy, but I cannot wait for all of my plans to come true. I guess I am kind of putting the cart before the horse because I am only in my first year of college, but hey a girl can wish, right?!

Back to my previous thought, seeing the girls at the dance clinic made me extremely excited to have children of my own someday. Of course, I am no where near ready for kids now, but I can't help but think about how they'll look and act, what they'll be interested in, and who they'll become. 

All of this stuff is exciting to think about, but then somehow I get snapped back in to reality. I have to remember I'm only a freshman in college (ugh) and  I have a verrrry long way to go before I have kids, let alone get married. It just seems like there is so much to look forward to and it is coming at such a slow pace. I guess patience is key. Although many people may tell me that I'm overlooking the present and jumping the gun while looking towards the future, I feel as if it is a good thing, getting me prepared for what's ahead in my life- (just a side note: I do have pretty high hopes for my future husband/the proposal so whoever he may be, it better be worth the wait!)

What happened to the good ol days?

This morning I was on Facebook (surprising, I know). As I was looking at the recent status posts that my friends had put up, I ran across one that said "I miss the old days." That got me reminiscing about my old memories. Rather than post a Facebook status similar to my friend's, I figured I'd just blog about it.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my life now. But what happened to the 'good 'ol days'? Growing up has it's benefits, but I would give anything to be young again. Reminiscing always brings me to my freshman year of high school. Although everyone hates freshmen, I can honestly say that was the best year of my schooling career. Yeah, the seniors picked on us and everyone had rude remarks as we walked down the halls, but I didn't have a care in the world.

During high school, I had 4 close friends. I can still remember many of the goofy and immature times we shared. Although we were stupid and giddy girls, I'd love to go back to that time of my life. Staying up and talking about boys or dressing up in stupid costumes could always guarantee a good time. Despite what anyone had to say about us, we had an amazing freshman year because we knew that we could always count on each other.

Although we stayed close friends throughout high school, it seemed like nothing was as great as freshman year. As we got older, serious boyfriends and alcohol related events got in between the close bond we all once shared. To this day, I know I can go to any one of those 4 girls during a rough time or problem and they will be there for me-I know that won't ever change- but it kills me to know that we let silly things get in the way of our friendship, which drifted us apart.

In summary, I'm almost thankful for that Facebook status "I miss the old days", because it got me thinking about how fortunate I am to have great friends and it reminds me that we will never forget all the amazing times we shared together.

College..Not Worth the Hype

Is it too soon to say that I hate college? Granted, it is only a week into the school year, but I can honestly say that I am already ready to quit. When I was in highschool, it seemed like the college lifestyle was SO much better. Less class time, more accountability, and absolute freedom to do as you wish. Boy, was I wrong. It seems as if nothing has changed since high school, and if it has changed, it's only gotten worse.

Prior to this year, I went to South High School. There, we had about 2,000 students, which was absolutely amazing. Going to sporting events, pep rallies, and school dances guaranteed a good time with great people. I was totally used to walking down jam-packed hallways and rushing to get to class in the six minute passing periods. The different varieties of people created a crazy atmosphere, one that I took for granted. Now that I go to a small college, I realize how much I miss the annoying freshmen who walk slow in the hallways, the drama-filled school dances, and the 2,000+ students at South.

Not only is the social aspect of school missing at college, but I really hate the academic portion as well. I realized that it would be different than high school, but I didn't know it would be THAT different. Last Wednesday, I spent at least three and a half hours in the library, working on ONE chapter in my book. I know that all the hard work will pay off in the end but for the time being, it is very frustrating. I swear my eye has been twitching for the past week due to stress and lack of sleep. This is only the second week, I can only  imagine what the rest of the year has in store for me.

I spent the entire weekend (literally) doing homework and now I get to go right back at it again tomorrow for another week. (yay..) I know all of this studying will pay off in the end, but it seems as if the end is absolutely nowhere in sight. The thought of having at least 4 more years of college is terrible and I can't stand it. I'm hoping that it can only get better from here, but things aren't looking too promising.